Thursday, February 01, 2007

so i didn't sleep at all today. feeling tired, but i can't fall asleep just yet. i am feeling very depressed. OFICCIAL LONER IN SCHOOL! i'm living in a world full of denial. i deny the fact that i do not understand what is taught in school, i deny the fact that i am lacking behind, i deny the fact that every little bit of thing is stressing me out. I deny the fact that the workload given is satisfying....

it's only the second month, and my stress level is all the way above my head. i feel like exploding. i feel like i'm in need of fresh air. i can't take this shit anymore.
i need to voice it out.
my head is spinning
i feel the pressure.
i am afraid i might not be able to go on
everywhere i see fear,
fear that i might not do well for o levels
fear that i will not be what i want to be
fear that i might not reach the expectations of my love once
i fear disappointment


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